Lost and FoundLost and FoundHere I am walking around aimlesslyScars surround every part of my bodyLies are all that I seem to knowTears no longer come outJust the supreme silenceI walk for what seems to be foreverI lose the strength that I have to standI was done, I was done with tryingI wanted to sit and rotBut there you wereThe flickering light in my hurt eyesYou came for me...came runningAt this close to dead corpseYou whispered thoughts of hope- often true thoughtsIt was never merely flattery, and overreacted wordsNor was it fake for secret intentionsIt was honest, kind, trueYou are the only one that makes me feel this wayBecause you are the first one you found MEI want desperately to say I love you my friendYou help in me in so many ways.-March 2, 2012-
Beginning of the EndIf I disappeared,I hope you'd knowthat I have alwaysLoved you.The things I've said,And the things I've done,Were only toDistract youFrom the truth.Because I knewThat if you heard,It would beThe beginning ofThe end.
Jump the GunJump the GunKnives hates guns. He never touches them unless he absolutely had to.Because the last time he had, people had died.***********'…This is…a tool for killing people.''Bullshit…it's a tool for protecting your life.''I don't want to kill a person in cold blooded murder…''You just did. Don't see them having second thoughts do you? You were just shot in the leg…!''But…''Grow up, Knives. Life isn't a do-over. Either you fuck up; right here, right now, or you go and screw someone over. There's no such thing as second chances.''…….'***********He knows someone who loves the ghastly weapons; like a child lavishing attention upon a puppy. Someone who knows a gun almost as well as he knows the crippling darkness he is forced to wander in for the rest of his life.A person who is steel tempered in fire; who has tasted metal and the sweet copper that is blood all at once.***********'…Christ be done with this. You're such a child.''I can't…''